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Received an email from Anton’s father intially asking if we could meet. To which I emailed him back asking as to what. He says he’s not a bad person, that he wants to be friends, and if we could talk. I replied that I was busy and to just email me if he wants to talk. He responded by saying, “Sige, hindi bali nalang. I know you’re happy na with your son, Anton. Goodbye.”
How did that email exchange made me feel? Relieved, thank God! Second, I think he’s such an OA, yuch! I don’t want him to see Anton, don’t want him anywhere near my son. TB says he doesn’t see anything wrong with seeing the guy, after all, he’s the father. Whatever. The guy turned his back on Anton, didn’t even want to be acknowledged as the father, wanted me to stop communicating with him after I found out I was pregnant. Then now, he wants to talk. See, he even wrote, “your son” in his email message. I saved the text messages we had for posterity which I can show in whatever Tribunal if it comes to that.
My heart will break when Anton asks for his father. And I will tell the truth. Tucked in the tiniest corner of my heart, there exists a wish that Anton may not even have to ask that question, hoping that when that time comes, there would already be someone around who will love him like a real son, someone who will be around for both of us. A wish that I try very hard to relegate to the background and instead focus on the here and now, that its just him and me.
I have so many challenges as a single mother…but I know I can handle it. If there’s one thing I’m good at, its how to survive….specially now. My little boy is growing up and he needs me.
How did that email exchange made me feel? Relieved, thank God! Second, I think he’s such an OA, yuch! I don’t want him to see Anton, don’t want him anywhere near my son. TB says he doesn’t see anything wrong with seeing the guy, after all, he’s the father. Whatever. The guy turned his back on Anton, didn’t even want to be acknowledged as the father, wanted me to stop communicating with him after I found out I was pregnant. Then now, he wants to talk. See, he even wrote, “your son” in his email message. I saved the text messages we had for posterity which I can show in whatever Tribunal if it comes to that.
My heart will break when Anton asks for his father. And I will tell the truth. Tucked in the tiniest corner of my heart, there exists a wish that Anton may not even have to ask that question, hoping that when that time comes, there would already be someone around who will love him like a real son, someone who will be around for both of us. A wish that I try very hard to relegate to the background and instead focus on the here and now, that its just him and me.
I have so many challenges as a single mother…but I know I can handle it. If there’s one thing I’m good at, its how to survive….specially now. My little boy is growing up and he needs me.
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