I'm on Reset Mode....Restart...In computer lingo, its Control Alt Delete. That kind of thing. How do I feel? Still sad, still hurt, but the crying has stopped.
My bestfriend meant well when, in her no-nonsense style, said, "I DID TELL YOU A LONG TIME AGO, AND REPEATEDLY IF I MAY ADD, THAT WHAT YOU WERE GETTING INTO WITH THAT GUY SPELLED DISASTER. You didn't want to listen, Tons," and this amidst getting my share of her second-hand smoke.
I wish I was one of those girls who, after having a good day at the salon or a good day of shopping, would bounce right back after a relationship disaster. TB has gone on and having a good time planning long drives to wherever and going to safaris and going wherever else in this country, or out of the country, to make up for lost time, and happily screwing his gf in the process. Hmm, I think I just sounded bitter back there.
Whatever, I have the right to feel what I feel. Picking up my broken pieces is my project for the remaining months of 2008. Never did I thought I was going to have a round 2 of a Rojun style getting over episode 4 years after it happened, yet here I am again. I do acknowledge that this mess is my fault and a lesson well learned.
Anyway, new good things should come soon now that I'm clearing up the space previously occupied by my stupidity. Will look forward to that.