My spirit's been kinda low again lately and I'm coming up with the following reasons...not necessarily in order of importance:
1) I need a higher paying job so I can start looking for a place of my own, where I want it and how I want it.
2) I want a new car so that I can give my existing Mitsubishi GLXI to my parents so that they can move on their own. However, I don't want to take out a loan from the Bank. Ayoko muna umutang ulit. Mabigat para sa akin.
3) I've lost faith that the Philippines will move forward and be progressive. I'm sorry but the incumbent president has not impressed me and the social ills are just to deeply buried in the psyche to be reformed
4) I'm 36 years old, still single and no man to call my own.
5) I yearn to have my own kids.
6) My dad's company is not doing too well.
Even in silent prayer, I'm having trouble verbalizing these to God. I end up saying, "Lord, please read my heart.... I don't know how to say it ...."
A friend invited me to go on a nature trip to Bohol and Cebu this coming March for a change of pace and scenery and I've accepted. I think it will do me some good. Though its going to leave a recognizable dent in my cash position, I realize that if I pass this up, I will never, ever, make time for my own recreation.
So there.